Looking back in life, especially after that nice chat (With it's VERY nice conclusion, but I digress ) with Jayden last night, I amde some point to recollect all my memories.

yes, it does indeed seem that I always appear to eb what they call a "Lao jiao" (Old Bird). hmmm... I wonder why. Perhaps it's beacuse I take life to be one big joke, and at other times over seriously. I always love to keep busy , doing something at one time or the other. Inactivity drives me NUTS! So I've been working, studying, Dragging... Yes well.. ahh, that no so famous part of my life. My ideas are rather incoherent today so bear with me...

It all began when I was born. Having both parents working left me growing up in the care of my Nanny and her family. It would seem weird but I always loved that family more than my own. My family had, up to the point when i moved back with my family, been nothing more than a weekend hindrance. I began helping out my mother at her canteen stall. It was filthy ,sticky and often times hard work, but I enjoyed every single moment of it. Partly, I love my mum, secondly, I could look at all the Cute (and oftn not-so-cute) college boys and girls. Note how I;ve noticed girls at such a young age? Guess What, guys featued hugely then already. Thinking it was just sheer idiocy for me to like a guy, I concentrated on girls...

Education was a small and rather irritating part of life. It was crucial, but did people ALWAYS have to make such a fuss about academics? Jeez... Anyway, the only non-fucked up pat of my life were the CCAs and my dance education. That was till Sec 4 anyway.

And then came MDIS! Lord I loved that Oh-so-stressful period of my life where i was working and studying at the same time. Sure It got me so messed up at times I felt like biting someonr, but it was filled with memories I'll probably bnever forget.. My gang of misfits rebelled in the best possible way; we stood out. Kaizer, Hazel, Ash, Kyle, Victoria, Dian aka Mu, the beautiful Prianca, Yenny, these giants filled my life with light and love.

ANd yes, that was when I first stepped out into the gay circle. At first it was filled with cobwebs and moonbeams sicne people had very deliberately led me down the path into a groupie mentality. Unfortunately, it didn't work and I was just about as solitary and steady as a rock in my convictions. In sucha short time, I spanned several images : The Slut, The Drag, The Outcast, The Goth. Lord and Lady up High, how fun thsoe days were. I felt Love back then too, with my then sweetheart Ruiken. He was the Joy of my life, but he alsoo forced me to take apart my heart. Love is amusing no?

And from then on, my life reeled from one boyfriend to another date just abuot as quickly as a sailor sways on board. Now, I'm going to try it one last time. let me trust you in, Friesboy :p May our relationship be good. Goddess, sanction my path and guide my soul!

Accursed's darkside uncovered at 8:43 PM